Happy New Year everyone! I hope you all had a fantastic, joyous Christmas and are now enjoying a wonderful New Year.
I took a deliberate break from the internet for most of December. Mainly because I just needed to disconnect for a while, but also because it is such a deadly busy month. Work is stressful, getting ready for the holidays is stressful, and my body simply said: Enough! So, I listened. And I did what I could and was happy with what I managed.
There is nothing seriously wrong with me — let’s get that out of the way (aside from needing a good head examination, that is) but some minor arthritis problems were flaring up and this necessitated weekly trips to the chiropractor and check-ins with the doctor, etc., etc. Then, there is the usual mental and emotional, shall we say problems, that afflict me this time of year. Try as I may to be the happy, carefree soul of Christmas joy and peace that I try so hard to emulate from the sappy Christmas movies and stories that I adore, it’s always a tough haul.
This year, though, I managed to come as close as I have ever imagined I could. I had an epiphany, midway through December, a real one, and it has given me a new perspective on my life. There was nothing so dramatic as a Clarence for me, but all the same, I felt something touch me and show me life is good and that I deserve my place in it. And that I need to stop expecting disappointment, for it will certainly find me as long as I stand there waving my hand in its face.
As crappy as 2011 was as a year, I can be thankful that I learned something important about myself and that I can face 2012 with a sense of restored hope. I am looking forward to accomplishing goals such as editing my NaNoWriMo novel into something publishable, spending more time with family and getting myself back in to better physical and emotional health.
To my family and friends who check in here once in a while I send you love and appreciation.
And, to each and every person who has touched my life through this blog, I wish you the very best of New Years.
It’s going to take me awhile to get caught up with everyone, but I’m going to do my very best.